I Need Thee Every Hour

Tonight I am struggling...it wasn't a bad day--in fact I had some really good gospel conversations and a really routine hospital day--went for my three walks and even got some local pound cake and bread and butter pickles to go with my sandwich for dinner--which the hospital then sent up the wrong food and I'm still waiting for the replacement--which is why I went shopping beforehand and brought my own cooler and snacks because you absolutely cannot depend on hospital food. I think I went from "must function until I crash at the hospital" mode to "hospital busy mode" and now that things are kinda settling into a routine here, there's more alone time and I'm just starting to process all the things. I have a really fun "football" RT that I had last night so when he comes in to do treatments, that will be fun and a good distraction. I was able to talk to Jord for a bit this evening and he's going to come down on Sunday since he can't come tomorrow because he's moving us...that's also hard to not be there to help him, but I know he has a lot of help. Just a lot of emotions to process and it's my time to cry tonight and that's ok--listening to worship music as I'm writing and I know you all are and will continue to pray for me and He will carry me through--He is Emmanuel--God WITH me...and though I feel lonely I am most definitely NOT alone, and for that truth I am very thankful!